1. being asked my opinion at work.... and someone actually listening. it doesn't matter if he agreed, he listened. amazing!
2. ate well. only slip ups were 3 potato chips and half a piece of chocolate. i don't feel bad.
3. looking forward to sushi tomorrow!
4. my house is warm.... finally defrosting from a chilly day at the office.
5. finally ordered mark's bday gift.
i feel much better today. but we're still starting on that business plan soon ;-)
Monday, January 26, 2009
Sunday, January 25, 2009
I can't keep up!
I can't seem to keep up with the 2 blogs! Now that my positive thoughts are dwindling down to nothing, I really should be keeping this up...
1. great friends, no matter how far. very nice visit with ange this weekend.
2. not gaining weight this week
3. lazy sundays
4. my bridesmaid's dress not being tight... actually it's a lil loose!
5. .. .. ... .. i really can't think of another one.
Please someone say a prayer for me that I figure out what it is I want to do with my life so I'm not stuck in the worst job I've ever had any longer. The unfortunate thing is that I come to realize that I'm good at a lot of little things, but not super kick-ass at any of them... not enough that I can make a career out of any of my "talents" (ha ha ha) or abilities.
This job is wearing on me so much. Other than being so ridiculously mundane, I am a slave to people who believe in everything I think is wrong. God help me. They treat me like I'm stupid. Like all of my input is clearly unnecessary. I am just a clerk so when I talk about my education, business models, business law, etc, I am quickly dismissed and seen as being combative. I was seen as a shining star and useful and smart when I simply wrote letters, sent faxes, filed, got lunch. Any mention of planning to prevent any disasters and also quickly dismissed. But I'm sure if a lawsuit is ever filed, all fingers will be pointed at ME.
My life is constantly living on edge, walking on eggshells, wondering when I'm going to get chopped. Waiting for the next insult or dismissal or disapproving look. God help me.
1. great friends, no matter how far. very nice visit with ange this weekend.
2. not gaining weight this week
3. lazy sundays
4. my bridesmaid's dress not being tight... actually it's a lil loose!
5. .. .. ... .. i really can't think of another one.
Please someone say a prayer for me that I figure out what it is I want to do with my life so I'm not stuck in the worst job I've ever had any longer. The unfortunate thing is that I come to realize that I'm good at a lot of little things, but not super kick-ass at any of them... not enough that I can make a career out of any of my "talents" (ha ha ha) or abilities.
This job is wearing on me so much. Other than being so ridiculously mundane, I am a slave to people who believe in everything I think is wrong. God help me. They treat me like I'm stupid. Like all of my input is clearly unnecessary. I am just a clerk so when I talk about my education, business models, business law, etc, I am quickly dismissed and seen as being combative. I was seen as a shining star and useful and smart when I simply wrote letters, sent faxes, filed, got lunch. Any mention of planning to prevent any disasters and also quickly dismissed. But I'm sure if a lawsuit is ever filed, all fingers will be pointed at ME.
My life is constantly living on edge, walking on eggshells, wondering when I'm going to get chopped. Waiting for the next insult or dismissal or disapproving look. God help me.
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